Nov 26...

The most suffer day that i ever had...
i with a group of friends,
celebrate one of my friend birthday party at paradise beach...
that was fun...we all was so happy...
But, there was something happen when we all are playing at the beach...
I was stung by jelly fish...
one of my frend also stung by jelly fish...
It was so pain...
I even dunno how to describe the painess...
It was SO PAIN!
Luckily i have group of nice friends...
they send us to hospital...
im soo paiseh with Gmin because she also stung by jelly fish cz of me...
But, only i need injection...because im more serious...
My face, huckle was stung by jelly fish terriblely...
until today i just can walk...and the pain just reduce...
And i hope i will recover soon and my scar on my face will gone...
In here,i would like to thanks all the friend that concern about me...
Thx a lot...you all are so nice...
I will not be sad,and i will try to be happi...
Just hope that the SCAR will dissappear from my face...

Already gone??

I saw u...
at "there"...quite close distance...
i pretend to not saw u...
i noe u saw me...
for twice...i noe it...
but i have to pretend not saw u...
besides i have to be happi infront frend and myself...
i not expect i will have tis feel when see u...
Y?i also dunno...
ur heart dont have me...
my heart cant have u...
I wanna let u in my heart actually...
But,u not let me have the chance...
So,i dowan let myself fall in this kind of problem...
cz, the person who suffer, only me rite?
ur heart,wont care that im sad or not...
i not really understand you,same as u not understand me...
u thought im that kind of gal,not serious in love,
i thought u is very selfish and obstinacy boy...
we never try to believe...
everyday,i wish tat our situation will change...
but seem dosent work,and we seldom saw each other,
so i dint hope much bout tat...
isit our opportunity to noe more each other will gone soon?
if will gone,i will not try to catch it,just will feel bedrudge...
what about u?i not dare to tink it...
u will go soon...isit mean that our fate end when the time u go?
I feel so complicated now...
who can help me?pls...it was quite pain...
HAIxxx...

Another Crazy day~^^

Just back from"Lepak"with frends...
Soo fun....
1st, we went for gurney drive,
There was so crowded...
Suddenly, 1 of our frend decide wanna go to drink bitter tea,
Then,we faster faster drive n go drink..
After that,we go penang airpot n waiting for the airoplane to arrive...
we take picture at there,chit chat at there...
somemore we "borrow" airpot's toilet..=.=
Very funni...n we take pic at toilet too...hehe
after that we lepak n lepak again...
we did some funni thing too(check by police for twice)><
then,we have our supper at Subaidah...
now just arrive our sweet hostel...hehe
really crazy la...n it was fun too...
ok~finish writing...is time go bed~nitezzz...

想

想家人快乐，

想真心快乐，

想把书读好，

想快点赚钱，

想去逛逛，

想快点心想事成...

Unforgetable moment...

今天上完课，一伙儿就驾着车去gurney的Seoul Garden吃东西，
一大群朋友热热闹闹去吃东西，
那种感觉很难形容，
很开心，很兴奋，很快乐！
很久很久没有这样了！
大家都吃得很开心，
因为是buffet，所以我们都吃很多，
1st round， second round， 3rd round...
就吃了很多，很炸到一下咯！
尤其是很瘦的Ar Chun 和那个奶很大又不错看的Tew gmin...
简直就像几百年没吃这样，
吃到很多咯！我看20kg分量有咯！
gmin好像很久很久没吃肉了，
感觉好像吃了一只鸡！= = 哈哈，死大肥（开玩笑）
能和一群好朋友一起我真的很开心，快乐，庆幸...
不知道做么，突然很感触，
写写写，想到现在那么要好，
万一哪一天大家分开了呢？
我不知道那时的我会是怎么样的心情...
无言语能形容吧我想...
我只知道毕业分离的那天，
我的眼泪会像大雨这样不停落下来吧！
我很怕分离，尤其是我的朋友，
在我的心中，朋友很重要！
没有朋友，世界，生活都是乏味...
我会记得在学院所发生的一切，
当然，有酸，有苦，有甜，
但都是值得回忆，值得被怀念的吧！
还有一年多，我相信还有很多回忆值得我们去创造...
我觉得真正的友情是有的，
看大家有没有看重“它”而已，
如果有，它就存在，
如果没有，它就不存在，
珍惜彼此吧朋友！！^ ^

...2012...

Yesterday i wathcing movie with my friends...
2012,really a nice movie...for me, this movie is so touching n so nice...
i never feel like that before...
It was so many thing up to my mind after i watch this movie...
It was so real n so convulse...
Today, our lecturer ask we all a question,
if u noe that 2mrw is the end of the world,what u all will do?
when she ask this question,
my mind was full up so so so many things...
I will feel disaffected...
Cz,i have so so many things havent done...
I havent earn lot of money,
I havent give better life to my parents and my grandmother,
I not yet travel arround the world,
and, i havent meet a nice guy in my life...=.=
there are too many things waiting me to finish it...
if there really end of the world,
I think i will be disaffected with my life,
i dowan my life end so meaningless...
i dunno wheather this thing will come true or not,(hopefully not)
Now, i just appreciate what i have in my life...

Recover!!!

My mood and feeling are return now
become fine d...
So happy,so comfort..
I will try to control my temper next time~!^^
Paiseh ya frends...
today,finish two presentation...
pressure decrease ady...
and,our hostel cook a very delicious dinner...
im so happy because i din make any mistake while im helping her in cooking...
and,the dishes i cook today are not bad too!
I dunno how to describe my feeling now cz, everything ady be alrite...
and i able to live happily without the memory that keep on play in my mind...
I live happily now,
with my family,with my frends...
hope u dont having any contaction with me anymore...
The pass,let it pass ok...
we ady say that before rite?
remember our promise k...
i ensure that your life will be more meaningful and more brilliant than mine...^ ^
i was very satisfy with my life now...
future also will be the same...

Bad mood......

今天，
突然间，心情很不好，
不是故意，但是克制不到，
失控的脾气，很不思议...
可能还不习惯一些已改变的东西吧，
一直在我的脑里面转转转，
让我变得很爱闹脾气，
可能，我做的东西，做不好，
可能，我因为不会而闹脾气，
可能，我学不会，不明白而闹脾气，
因为我的蠢而不开心，
因为我的接收能力差而不开心，
我会学，会尽量跟上你们的脚步，
我希望你们能多点耐心，
慢慢和我讲，慢慢解释，
我知道你们会不耐烦，
但，那不是我想要的，
我也不知道为什么，
一些东西在我生活改变过后，
我开始很在意别人对我的评论，
无论外在，还是智力，
我没有要求要很好，我只要求不差，
总之今天的我，不是平常爱笑爱玩的我，
自己也很不习惯，
看明天会不会恢复正常吧~！

Busy~~

Today,is the busy day for me..
i almost busy for whole day to finish my assignment~~
Actualy,this assignment can be done earlier,
just i delay and delay...hehe...
Well,done my work,
prepare for 2mrw presentation...
sometimes i will think that,
iz it this rush n rush assignment and life will make any advantage for me in future?
i think it works...
Now, my life really simple...
chit chat with friends,
bully by y1m57 TEW GMIN!
doing my works that given,
play a role as a good gal in house..
that's all~~
tired now...
think too slp...night~~^^

缺...

缺，

我缺钱，

缺衣服，

缺鞋子，

缺钱包，

缺爱情。。。

回忆

你，已经成为我的回忆...
很早很早，你就应该成为我的回忆了，
只是我自己不面对现实...
我，早也成为你的回忆了吧？
在我心里，虽然日子不长，
但是给我的回忆却不少...
有酸有甜...
让我用了3年多不停的回想我们的过去...
现在我和你都必须改变了,
我不知道我会给你什么样的回忆,
不管怎么样，我会永远收着这份回忆的...
这一次，真的真的变成回忆了,
画上句点了....

I'M SO SUFFER...!!!!

你们可不可以不要想太多？
你们可不可以不要那么迷信？
你们可不可以不要那么多心？
你们可不可以让我有作决定的权利？
你们可不可以让我有点自由权？
你们可不可以不要对我有怀疑？
你们可不可以让我有机会自立？

我，对你们给我的安排没有任何的意见，
我，从很久很久以前就像一只白羊，
任何一件事情，我都只有同意，没有说不的时候，
我，没有自己意见的权利，
我，没有机会选择自己想要做的事情，
我，永远就是只被保护的，被管的牢牢的...

我想要改变，
从小，我就很丑陋，很黑，很胖，很大只，
这些外在，让我有很多的自卑感，
我的小学生活，并不快乐，
被当外星人般看待，被人叫大胖子，
被其他女生和男生当怪物...
男生都叫我肥猪，远离我...
男生的眼里永远不会有我这只丑鸭子...
导致我做什么就只有服从的份，
现在，
这种感觉，这种自卑感仍深深在我的心里,
虽然样貌少许改变了，
但我的外在和内心还是以前的我，
不敢面对自己，没有信心，
对朋友，对感情也是一样...
还是有人会觉得我很高大，
我到现在还是会萎缩，

我想要改变自己，
想要有自己的选择权，
你们却认为我在外面结交了不好的朋友...
以前，你们总是阻挡我，
说我这个朋友不好，那个朋友少来往，
结果，到最后我的朋友都一一离开我...
很好，你们成功了！开心了！
那我的痛苦，你们了解吗？

你们总说我很冷淡，
不和人打招呼，
没笑脸迎人，
哪里都不去，一直在家...
那么请问，是谁让我变成这样？
我交的朋友你们看不过眼，
不去结交朋友你们又说我不会交际，
迟早变三八...
你们到底要我怎么样？

现在，你们又要想办法破坏我和朋友的友情，
我的改变，你们就只会怪在我朋友身上，
再不然，就对我在学院的生活做出结论，
不是生活方式有问题，就是我住的地方不合我，
时不时就威胁我搬回家，不让我继续读...
不然就威胁不给我生活费，
你们可以不要那么可笑，
可以不要那么迷信吗？
我没有撞邪，
也没有被任何人影响，
是我自己变了，
我知道什么该做，
什么不该做，
我什么都不敢保证，
但我能保证我绝对是一个有分寸的人！
别人不信我没关系，
我要的是你们信任我！
不要一直说我会去那些我少去甚至不去的地方...
被怀疑，是很痛苦的你们知道吗？

我长大了，不再是小孩，
不可能永远都没有任何主见，
我可以吸取你们的教导和意见，
但我不能接受一些你们安排给我根本没有兴趣的事情，
要是这样，我的世界真的很没有意思...
当然，我也不会像有些人想寻死...
我只会觉得这就是我永远的生活吗？

你们有没有问过我，
我喜欢什么？
我想什么？
我想学跳舞，
我想学钢琴...
因为以前的我，根本没有勇气去学这些,
去了，八成都会被取笑，
虽然现在偶尔也会如此,
我想自己半工读，
有了钱去学这些...
我不想一直和你们伸手要钱...
不然你们又说我很会花钱，
你们知不知道？
开口闭口就这样说话，我听到很累了...
有时候真的想一睡就不要起来，
这样大家都不会再有这样的情况发生了...

我不完美，也永远不会完美，
只是，我想在我的不完美中，
添加一些我自己喜欢的事情...
让我可以有选择的权利，
这样我就不会再那么痛苦
就满足了...

幸运...

我可以说是很幸运的，
和别人compare起来，
我真的很幸运了咯~~
今天，和往常一样，
起了床，刷了牙换了衣服就去上课了...
本来以为今天穿的不错看的...
结果,却被一个很帅可是奶很大的TB说我穿孕妇装咯！
很无言一下的咯~~
不过没关系啦~~哈哈
今天学校有food fair...
去了朋友的挡口支持支持...
每一天，我在学校和宿舍的日子是过的很开心，很快乐的~
虽然有时候是走路去上课，
不过现在我们终于有车坐了~~
很开心很开心~！
我和几个朋友都是来自平凡的家庭，
过着平凡的生活，
就和其他学院生一样~~
唯一不同的，
就是我们的生活方式...
每天吵吵闹闹+坏嘴巴+皇嘴~（y1m57gmin）
疯疯癫癫+blur~~（就是本人）
糊里糊涂+睡不醒（y1m57huipei）
很凶+嘴尖（新转学来我们班的vinx）
很会唱肮脏歌+很会说笑（y1m57 CFK）
拥有那么特别性格的人生活在一起，
就形成了：互炸的情况发生~！
每一天都会有很好笑的事情发生~
搞到我们都很无言~
主要原因就是我咯！！
我的大头虾毛病真的严重到无药可救~
所以才会导致那么多状况发生~哈哈
不过，这样的生活比较好玩啊~~
如果一切变得冷清清了那就不好了...
所以在学院生活里，除了我，还要有你们啊！
不然也没有意思了咯！
helen,ren,vivi,vinx,kaikai etc...
尤其是肥了奶又大不过却很不错看的Gmin（Jasmine）！^ ^
虽然我的世界少了那么一点点才算完整，
也曾经失去了一些东西~
不过，
有了你们这群朋友的友情，
我才知道有情并不都是假象的~
所以至于这一点我真的是很幸运~^ ^
珍惜吧~！！

Terrible cook...^ ^

This is the 1st time i try to write blog by using english...
If have any mistaken,dont laugh ya..
Well,today really the most terrible day that i never pass...
Y?because i done the most terrible thing in my college life~
Know what happen??
1st,today i not really in good mood,cz i wake up very early...
Then,when class,my frends bully me...
say im big buttock not have place to let me sit..
but then they give my another frend to sit....
Reason is,his buttock is smaller...
ok,i accept lor...what to do?they aready say that...
If i really angry,then no good ma...
then i keep quiet,they say me flayflint...
really boom with them...
after that everything become fine...
Then,when back hostel,my housemate headche(a good cook)
Then,I try to cook a dinner to my housemate...
That is my 1st time^ ^
I thought i can cook it well...
then can let my friends enjoy delicious dinner that i had prepared...
but,it out of the way~hehe...
i even dont know how to cook rice..=.=
The rice still raw...
The most things that i cannot accept is i cook the vegetable without cut it into smaller...
And i put too much salt...my all funny fren eat until speechless...haha...
I really feel so sorry to them...
prepare such a terrible dinner to them...
but,i feel funny when see their expression while they eating food that i had prepared...
They finish all the food although the food taste digusting..=.=
I really admire their courages..he he...
I will improve my cook technique NEXT time...
Then will prepare lovely dinner to you all again...
So friends~~wait ya~^ ^