FeeL DisSapoinTed wIth mySelF...

Im so awful...
Not only in my study,
not only my addlehead attitude,
but also my personal life...
I really dont understand,
Y this type of problem happen in my life?
Im so so so tired...
this not my fault...
Is my fate not yet come...
Y dont you understand???
sis have a nice and rich bf, honestly i was so envious...
but i'm not in hurry to have a bf...
because i not yet meet my fate and a guy that i really like.
you keep on press me find one bf,
i will feel very embarrassing and dissapointed with myself...
I noe you hope that i can meet a good bf,
but now i really cant meet it...
Im so SorrY.
I will show to you if i meet my fate one day...
Cz,you are very important to me in my life...^ ^
Please be patient...

wreck engagement!!!

a PERSON that wreck engagement,i still want care her feeling?
actuali i reli regret for my mistake,
but now my friend told me what she write at blog yesterday,
i have to think back isit i should regret for my mistake?
few day ago,i make smtg misunderstanding...
my fault! soo noob la me~=.=
so mouthy tell my frend smtg bout her,
because my frend ask and concern about her,ok lo, this is my fault la..
I ask her go see the person's BLOG.
cz she gt write her feeling to someone...
When i tell my frend the about her thing,
The person who wreck the engagement tell me the thing that i get from someone is not accurate.
ok,since she say that thing is not true,then i apologise from her...
i also Shoot by her a BIT...i accept...cz is my wrong!
Then,she say end it up here(that night)
But,did u reli noe the meaning of END IT UP HERE?
if u dunno,then u really so pity.
We promise that this thing we end it up that night,
but the next night you repeat the whole case again..
the most funny is,things that happen for so long time u also take out and said.
that night i said,pass things just let it pass,future we all group still friend.
you say u no delete the message i send,u can go refer back..
if u dowan to friend with us anymore,that up to you.
Since u wreck the engagement, then should i keep the promise?
i want to say is i din't shift all the thing to my fren.
maybe that your opinion only.
I got take responsiblity to mistake that i have made.
and pls dont blame others cause u n ur fren's friendship broke..
sometimes have to think back urself,
although im not perfect,not have competency to say other,
but this just my opinion...
Last thing i wanted to say is, if dowan others go see ur blog,
then dont create blog...

I DIN'T MENTION WHO O!
Pls dun guess o~
dun who eat chili who noe the spices o~>.<

无法形容的心情

最近很烦，
昨天更是严重炸到！
不知道做什么，
我真的很烦~
虽然就要去KL玩了，
表面很开心，
但，我心里还是很烦~
这种心情，真的无法形容...
我的脑海，浮现了很多东西，
可能我想太多吧！
我在想，
为什么我的家人那么保护我？
为什么我的家人管我那么严？
再这样下去，我会学会自立吗？
我在想，
世界上到底有没有真的朋友？
什么事都摊开来说的，
一起分享的？
还是只有互相利用，交换利益，
表面很好而已？
我看到太多例子了，
从好友变成普通到不行的朋友~~
万一有一天发生在我的身上，
不知道会怎么样叻？
我在想，
为什么我想要得到的东西就是那么难？
我想要的，就和其他女生一样而已...
难道我真的要像我朋友说的那样，
买间屋子在那里等着我吗？哈哈
我没有天使脸孔，
没有魔鬼身材和优雅的内涵,
我只是个爱讲话，爱笑，blur一点的女生而已...
过着的生活就和其他女孩子一样，
想要拥有的，也和其他女孩子一样...
没有要名车大楼，
只要求平凡幸福...
没有要求交上流社会的朋友，
只要求坦率交心的朋友...
为什么我却感觉我要的这些很难？
在朋友面前我总是很开心，
可是当一个人的时候，
我却很怕那种寂寞，那种安静的感觉...
啊~~！！！
烦死~！
我也管不了那么多，
要是未来这些事情发生了，
我也不能怎么样，
随便啦，走一步看一步吧！